Just 30 minutes ago, I almost want to hit my friend in the face so hard that I kept myself holding very very hard and bleed-ed my palm while holding the fist. So many years, so the 1st time that urge came to me, the feel that I want to punch someone so hard that he would cry for forgiveness, beg for mercy and yet I hold myself good. Its not because I'm great, its because I'm still able to think, for my other friend and my girlfriend. If I would be myself today here, I'm sure I'd punch him and smash him with everything around me without considering the consequences.

Today's flame is unusual, being so big that I can't still barely put it off even now writing this very post. People at fire still doing the annoying stunt and provoking that would probably make himself hurt. Yes Ken, you're rational, you didn't lose the fight, you just won cause you kept quiet and let him bullshit you, and you did great there. Gods know whos being a dick and I do believe in karma. If I did unleash the demon inside me, I'd regret my whole life being that part of me again.

-KeN